Yup

Fat, drunk and stupid is a great way to go through life actually.

moe.

I am rocking out to Timmy Tucker>Recreational Chemistry from moe. I don't like moe much at all with microphones on. Maybe I love moe with the microphones turned off. This band has befuddled me for 5 years.

Damn songs

I have a fairly wide appreciation of music, but a fairly narrow band of bands and songs I listen to in my truck and when I program. These times to me are when I am most in tune with myself. Warren, Allmans, Dead/Jerry/Grismon, Widespread Panic, more Warren, DMB, Bela Fleck, Floyd, Moses Guest. make up 90% of the menu.

Some days different songs strike me. Today, my fancy Sirius beeped at me for "My Morning Jacket" who have some great songs and and some not so great (Austin City Limits was an interesting one for them) so I rustily moved from 17 to "The Loft", cause I was in that kind of mood. Soulful, slow, borderline depressing without being depressed kind of thing (this last clause was to be the core of this post). Song was decent, but not memorable. Then this British girl came on, as I was deciding whether I was going to switch back to Jam on or Howard, and it gave me pause. It was "Cure-esque" if there is such a thing. Her name is Kate Nash and the song was "Nicest Thing". It was about the most heartfelt thing I have heard in a long time. Things like that are why I love music. Usually a riff, or beat, or lyric will strike something in me which resonates. This was kind of opposite, it was like I was being pulled in to what resonated with her, instead of her pushing to me. I obviously can't really explain it. It isn't earth shattering new musicianship by any means and I am sure the lyrics have been done a million times before. Sounds much like Cure "Lovesong" I would say.

Song is basically "He's not that into you". Instead of being campy and pop relevant, it is a mixture of deep soulfelt sorrow and moderatly positive, forward-looking hope? I think I like most that she doesn't once say she loves him, but with swarovski clarity answers what love is to her, and if I were being honest and open, to me.

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,
Yea, I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
Yea, I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

Look,
All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish we could see if we could be something
Yea, I wish we could see if we could be something


So enough about the dumb song that amazon got 0.99 richer from, and the girl who obviously laid it all out there. It's all about me, here and now, as I blog to me myself and I.

Last time I felt like this, it was a similar kind of song, with Warren covering the U2 tune "One" acoustically. I really obsessed about that one for a while, but as a song, not the lyrics. It took me a week or two to read the lyrics and then I felt weird. I don't go to therapy and don't plan on it. I think I was born with the tools to figure shit out. Realizing some things can't be figured out is a sign of maturity I think. I do have to wonder though if these 2 songs say something about me on a subconscious level, if there is such a thing. Why such a strong, palpable draw? I do think underneath there is something to it obviously.

On the exceedingly rare occasion I have these kind of talks with actual real people, rather than just myself, I get the lecture about setting standards too high, or establishing unrealistic expectiations so as to have an impenetrable barrier. There may be some truth to it I guess. I was married to someone who was never the one, not for a day. I never once felt the way Kate Nash does with the close exception of a girl from college. Is it really wrong to hold out for what she feels? I don't think so. Life is short and I am quite happy with it as it is now. I won't close the door on the possibility of relationshipy things in the future, but I know damn well what it will be like. Thanks Kate. I'm a feeling a little "deep" today because of you which I am not sure how to take, but I have some validation that others have innards similar to mine.

Beer Tasting

Out of here tomorrow for a visit with the little brother to drop off baby stuff and hang out, then down to Lake Cayuga for a couple of days R&R for the mind with the college crowd. I self nominated for the beer tasting selection at my new favorite place, Abe's Cold Beer. Should be interesting. Weather doesn't look great, but nothing does in comparison to the last 10 days. Who cares, insobriety is an all weather affair.

12oz x3
Flying Dog Snake Dog IPA
Lagunitas IPA
Southern Tier Hop Sun Wheat
Bells Porter
Bells 2 Hearted Ale
Shastafarian Porter
Stone IPA
Lagunitas Little Sumpin Sumpin
Breckenridge Summer Ale
Ballast Point Yellowtail Pale Ale (kolsch)
Thirsty Dog Siberian Night Imperial Stout



Bombers x1
Pennichuck Fireman's Pale Ale
Port Brewing Hop 15 Imperial IPA
Hoppy Brewing Stony Face Red
Fort Collins Double Chocolate Stout
Hoppin Frog Silk Porter
Rogue Seahorse Pale Ale

Hmmmm

If spam, like love, is blind, do women get endless emails regarding v/agra and Peni$ enlargement, or do they get their own dedicated marketers? Do spammers pull up to the checkout window and say "just the middle age dude's please" when they get their list?

Why don't I get a single email asking me if my tits are saggy or my ass cheeks are full of cheese?